Some of you guys know that I've been going thru a rough time lately...but honestly it's really a lot worse than I've been letting on. I've been crying all day long...and have been since sometime last night. I really don't have anything good to look forward to these days...when you can't get a job and your friends and family turn their backs on you and your mother abandons you...and you have to sacrifice the last things that make you happy just so you can have a place to live...it takes its toll on you.
I'm going thru a really bad depression right now...I have nothing that makes me happy...and everything that does is being taken away from me. All of the big things that are weighing down on me and burdening me are effecting me so bad...that even the small stupid things are upsetting me more than they normally would..and it's not something I can control. So...I've decided to eliminate as many of the small stupid things from my life as I can so it all doesn't upset me as much.
Unfortunately...a couple of those small stupid things upsetting me more than they should are on this forum...and I know they seem stupid and insignificant to you guys...but to me right now in the emotional state I'm in, they're really upsetting. And I can't expect anyone to change anything just because I'm upset by it.
So...I'm taking a step back and disappearing for a while. I don't want to cause problems...so I think it's for the best. I don't know how long it will be for. It could be a week or so till I'm ok again...or it could be months. I don't know when (or if) I'll be back. I'll still be puttering around msn...and checking my fb and DA from time to time if you guys start to miss me. So if you really need me...you know where I'll be.
I love you all very much...and I hope I get thru this quickly so I can come back and have some good times with you.
__________________
I don't really care if you're not single We could use each other just a little No one has to know if we're together Come on let me be your guilty pleasure
Awe, don't feel that way... I meant that it's the samething as me, sometimes. I already got that before at my old school... I used get depression but at my new school (Since Janurary) but who cares, I can still get depressions... I really hope your still going to go check your stuff on Facebook and Deviantart just like you said because I really want to talk to you... but PM on either sites (Deviantart and Facebook), you are welcome to PM me just like I said.
__________________
Banner from Wyatt Williams (aka Craigpfau) and avatar by Nikki Wong (aka Daanton) from 6TEEN.ca
Wow...I (attempt) to take some time off to get my head on and fix my emotional state...and when I check back everyone is leaving.
Looks like I've started a trend XD
Well...I might as well say I'm back. It's only been a week...and my brained an heart are still fcuked up...but I just can't leave this place. I mean I said I was taking time away but honestly...I was still here even though I didn't post anything. I just cant stay away. This place is like a drug to me...and I love you all to death.
So...I'm back. And as much as I still have my issues here...I'm gonna do my best to not let them get to me.
__________________
I don't really care if you're not single We could use each other just a little No one has to know if we're together Come on let me be your guilty pleasure
